Names

I have decided; in the affirmative? It is affirmative, certainly.  The affirmation, the decision, is a conscious one; but is the affirmed and decided a prior state, a preexisting condition?  This seems to be the issue (for me, at least) surrounding the right to name.  Problematically, I both believe the right should not exist, and that I do not have it--defining myself by the institution I wish to abolish.  By the rules of an institution which claims origin, which claims lineage, I am a degenerate; drifter; traitor; mongrel.  I acknowledge differences within myself, but do not align them with the corresponding lineage of difference--not out of rebellious courage, mind you, but because I do not feel I have the right to do so.  Then, following this, I feel as if I have a right to claim all those places I travel to or from (this sort of claim being more the size and shape of a possessed affection than an overarching ownership).  I do not mean to speak for any of the things I claim, so it cannot be claimed I may distort the established lineage.  I will define myself through another, but not another through myself; how could I possibly hope to embody so many multitudes?  My own skin is like atmosphere around me; I am lost in it.  It's great fun, but I do not fathom crowds when I can barely fathom myself.
The shapeshifter in this town says: I am not you, and I mean you no harm (no unusual amount), but I should like to walk among you for my own reasons.  What reasons?  I will not tell you; I will not make myself toothless or expose a priori skin because I have no skin but that which you lend me and that which was lent before you.  To claim lineage and name protects only what I want today, and not what I will want tomorrow.  I am mongrel; I desire. My reasons are my own.