Books and Still-to-do's

There is a book I want for my library that I am tentative to put in my library because I know it is in yours.
And for some reason, this duplication bothers me. I want to read this book again--all of it, this time, instead of all-of-two-chapters. But I cannot quite bring myself to buy it.

There is a picture (theme?) I draw over and over again--not every page in my sketchbook, not even every other other page. I have drawn things repeatedly before, but usually this stops when I have drawn it's best form (champion form--like it's a digimon or something), or when I'm pulled into another style or idea. But this thing...I must keep drawing. Even when the picture is a good one, passable, acceptable, it is never what it should be--it is good enough in some other category. I is a bird or a robot or a hound or a horse, but never what it should be. It is so far what it should have been now that I don't know that I will ever draw what I initially intended; those first sketches on lined paper, in older notebooks (I've saved them)--they are not the best looking, but they are closer to what I was looking for. Or at.


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Now, what to do?
Beastly-huge portfolio has to be done for tomorrow; 5-page introduction, 10 more glossary entries, table of contents. And I have to track and return those poems for punk-ass-kid-who-will-not-be-named. Also need two more lines of iambic pentameter by conference time. Also need to contact my Logic prof. and get help before the final murders me next week.

For Friday, just the 2-page preface for the other portfolio. A nap would be nice, too. Finishing the first third or two thirds of my thought experiment would also be great; I would love to just have the marrow alone to work on over the weekend.

Then, finals time. And there isn't really much I can do then. Look at some apartments, maybe, if I have time. Take out the staggering amount of recycling/trash that's piled up over the last week. Get out of my regimen of Monsters (I'm working up a colorful little collection of their tabs). Walk. Nap. Pack. Go.