Weaknees

Fantastic bruise on my knee is fantastic.

Pant

I don't mind it now, but sometimes, I think about the day The dawn when everyone goes home When everyone curls up Nuclear and I am the only one still beating my feet against the grass; When everyone is quiet and happy and still and I am still...playing. I don't mind it out here, I prefer it, I think, just...the forest is meant for more, you know?

Follow

Someday, I think I'd like to fuck someone up.

Just by existing. Ha.

..Fuck.
Sometimes I wonder if I am following old but diligently left trails when I begin to think like this.

I don't want to.
I won't.

Learn

I am beginning to suspect that any teacher (any teacher worth their shit) that teaches a given subject does so because they are interested in learning more about it themself. I know even less than a teacher, less than a student; and yet...I want to learn you something. Something slow. Something drawn out, you quickhorned hawkbrained beast. I know just enough to invite you, and I am just foolish enough to do it, it seems.

Horns

Horngiver should never grow horns; but sometimes she fears she grows them, six, three pushing up from the side of either hip; that or there sprout spider legs. That second one is quite possible as well, but no more desirable, I think.

Twisting

And the image that is stuck in my head: it isn't sexual, but it has sexual potential, it has everything's potential and that's what makes it shake like an atom, that's what makes it so exciting. I don't fear this It sways at my back like a strange lover to strange darkwater music.

Awwwwyeaaaahhh

But maybe I fear the ugliness it drags with it
Spit that out, Odradek it's-

Boat

I don't want to be in the same boat as you YOUR BOAT GODFUCKING SUCKS LOLOLOL

But I..I guess it's nice to have the company.

Glot

Sometimes my thoughts refuse to take shape except in other languages. Which is inconvenient, because I don't know much of either. I had a dream last night that I couldn't get to know this very tall chap because I couldn't remember how to say san bain uu--hello. Some things must be lockdown safe, which they are in other languages; some things need the connotation another language has.

I wish I was a polyglot so hard.

Irony

Is the sound of your voice as you sing to the songs I survived to.

Ha.

Demonae.


Sankon Tessou
I feel like a shitty Kagome sometimes. Because the phrases "too good" and "not good enough" are just two vitals on the same monster.

I shot an arrow in two once.

It wasn't as badass as it sounds, but it sure felt pretty badass.

I probably have better aim than her.

Eyebrows and mustache so as to differentiate her from regular Kagome, of course. And Kikyo.

Universe
I think very large things within a very small context. I don't love everyone; I don't even know how to properly comprehend everyone. I do not know how to comprehend anyone I have not left a part of myself with.
But I am embarrassingly fond of and interested in those I have.
I have the mixed exuberance of a dog and Waldo when it comes to friendship, because I'm pretty pro at being..hide. So if you see me, it's like HOLY SHIT YA FOUND WALDO and then, if you think I'm worth hanging around...pow. Goes deep, man. Probably deeper than it should, really.
If ever I yell into a crowd, it is only because I am too flustered to call your name sometimes.

teeheeheelolololroflroflrofl

Simplicity
While we're dealing with embarrassment, there's this embarrassingly simple part of me that wants to find someone who deserves to be happy and just...make them happy. It is a strange and recent inclination, not terribly specific. And in return, I'd want a place to nap. Is all.

Wendigomon violently disagrees with all this nonsense.

Ink
So Chameleon does UVs.
The fourth can wait forever; it's for a two horned beast that has no trouble surviving.
The third is small, but expansive; I don't know how much it would cost. It is perfectly meaningless. Perfectly.
The second is probably more sexual than the third, which is strange, considering-
The first must wait at least the month; it is the least important. It is a reminder I am not yet sure I will need. So it'll wait.

Temporal Universe

I am telling myself this is temporary; this is dangerous; this is one of those things that can invert itself; this is one of those things that just needs to get its foot in the door to-

Don't worry; I'm keeping an eye on Saturn.

But I don't control the phases of the moon.